September 2025

I need to go to sleep because we are going to a music festival tomorrow, the artists we really want to see are Michelle Branch and Vance Joy, and then later in the evening Train and Fall Out Boy are playing which I think will be really fun also. There aren't many artists we really absolutely need to see earlier in the day so we are going to go a little bit latter. I'm a little stressed about the parking situation/getting to the actual festival but it will all work out.

Today we went to Philly to hang out w friends, we went to a Japanese museum and then walked around and then to a Turkish coffee/tea place and then walked all around I got hot and sweaty but it was nice to see some places I'd never walked, I've driven all around the city but really only walked through Center City and South Street. Then we went to a Senegalese restaurant and it was delicious and then we went to our friends house to visit w her dog and see her new place because we haven't been there yet and then we went and got water ice from my fave place. I was the only one who got water ice bc my wife is not a fan. So delcious and I appreciate her patience traveling out of our way.

I made some color edits/background edits to the art page and the media page. I want to add more content but also I have no idea what to add. I feel like the cat page could be more, or maybe I just do another page, one per cat and then one for them together. That would be very cuties. Also maybe a page for Bob's Burgers because it's my absolute favorite TV show. I also just realized I don't have a TV page for my 90s and 00s media page. I could include Futurama and King of the Hill on there and a ton of other shows like All That and Roundhouse and Are You Afraid of the Dark and so many others. Also I want to add to my art page maybe scan in some things I found in my old journals and stuff that would be nice. Ok goodnight <3.


Work was pretty good today. I spent the day working on a file to easily see where commentary is needed. I made it way too colorful I need to go back tomorrow and just pick maybe 4 colors and work on various shades or maybe just use 3 one for each section and repeat within headers. We'll see. After work we brought a meeting to our friends in an assisted living. It was nice to see friends and I love bringing meetings there because I feel like I'm seeing family/being useful/doing something nice.

Then we went to dinner and got into a discussion about money because of some work we needed done on the house lately. I feel very criticized but I know that's like a me thing. I feel insecure about spending too much and not knowing how to manage well and want to get on the defensive. But I don't have to do that, I can just like take feedback and know that I'm trying to do better and actually do beter about spending only what I have and not just buying everything on credit. It was such a way a of life for me since forever that money was like an unlimited thing. Granted once I was like 18-20 whatever I didn't have started going on credit cards and that's how I ended up with 25K of credit card debt mainly paying the minimum and throwing money at it when I had extra. I know I can't regret the past and I hope one day I can help someone with that because sometimes it's like UGH the money that I could have saved. I've paid so much in interest over the years. But at the end of the day it's done, it's paid for, and I (mostly) enjoyed what I spent it on, minus what I drank away. I did travel and spend time with friends with it as well. But living within just what I made feels very hard, I hope it will get easier the more I practice.

I should really get some sleep because it's such a struggle for me to get to work on time. It definitely feels like I'm back in high school and can't/won't get my body out of bed. The crazy thing is work is good and I like doing it though and there is absolutely nothing stressful or bad about it. It's just the act of getting ready to go, but if I want to go see friends or do something 'fun' I can pop out of bed. What is that!?


I sort of forgot I started this site. I was so caught up in other hobbies/things. I am starting therapy again and wanted to go through some old journals because I wanted to get into some inner child work and so I started reading my old Diaryland diary and then I was like oh wait I have this site here I starteed. I'm so amazed that Diaryland is still online in the same form that it was 20 years ago. All of the other ones have drastically changed. Tumblr, Livejournal are filled with ads, blogspot/blogger is totally gone, and I'm sure there were more I can't rememeber and of course I had a page on each one. So crazy! And I piled up all of the journals I still have from elementary/high school but haven't brought myself to read them yet, so cringe. I re-read like a year of entries on Diaryland and was cringing the whole time. I can't believe I acted that way/treated people that way. I also just read some of my entries from early sobriety when I was so scared to talk to people and I'm proud of who I am today. I went up to a lady after yesterdays meeting and introduced myself and invited her to our Friday meeting. And I think about all of the actual friends I've made in recovery. What an amazing feeling.